Bullseye Edition

I can't be what you want me to be / You shooting too high, cause you ain't aiming at me

~ Big KRIT / Redeye ~

There’s levels to taking an L...

The first type is the easiest to me. It’s the one when you gave all you got, but came up short. It hurts, but I can find peace in knowing I went all out.

The next type is when you actually could have done better. A lil more prep. A lil more effort. A lil more something that you had to give or could have obtained...but you didn’t. I remember a BJJ tourney match where I tapped out before I fully exhausted every option. The choke he had on me started setting in and I got that claustrophobic feeling. Thing is I KNOW I had a lil more in me, but I didn’t give it. That loss still angers me at times, but still, the last type of “L” is worse...

It’s often mistakenly explained as when someone sees something in you, that you don’t see in yourself, and they “push” you towards that, but you never achieve it. Thus, you take the “L”. However, that explanation and assessment of failure is wrong. 

It’s more so when someone makes you up in the image of what they want you to be. They then push you to that standard never caring of whom you truly are or are becoming. Confusing? My bad, g. Restated, some folks are only rock with you if you’re their version of you. However, attempting to fit into their vision means you’ll lose yourself and still come up short for them. But unfortunately, sometimes, ya’ll both keep pushing.

Personally, I’ve only experienced this in romantic relationships. Maybe that’s a blessing as I’ve witnessed the results of when a parent does this to child. Banking on a fabricated potential instead of investing in the present greatness yields a deeper depth to the “L”. My dude, KRIT, was just emphasizing the need for target practice.